It's Time

Is this life telling me that I should let go and move on. I guess what made it difficult was the reality that I am in a situation where in I don't know where I stand therefore I don't have the right to demand! What made it worse was the fact that everything was fine. Everything was going smoothly. Then all of a sudden I was left behind! I then began to question myself... "Was I not good enough to be loved?"... "Was there something I failed to do?" or "Was there something that I did to deserved such treatment?", a lot of questions left unaswered. I've been hurting a lot for the past weeks and I realized I can't be in this situation forever. This will be the last time I will let my tears run because of this. If something is meant to be then it will be.

LDR

Ano ba ang pananaw mo sa isang relasyon na walang kasiguraduhan?

Ang long distance relationship mahirap... masakit para sa dalawang taong nagmamahalan ng malayo sa isa't isa.
May mga taong pinipiling tiisin ang sakit dahil alam nila sa sarili nila na kaya nila, at naniniwalang may patutunguhan din ang lahat basta may tiwala sa isa't isa... yun ang mahalaga.
Pero sapat ba? Sapat ba ang tiwala para magtagal ang ganitong relasyon?

Ang pagtitiwala ay dapat may katumbas na tapat na pagmamahal.
Kailangan tiisin ang sakit... kailangan mong maghintay... kailangan mong mag tiwala.

Pero hanggang saan... hanggang kailan ka aasa?
Kung minsan umiiyak sa sobrang pagkamiss sa taong yun.
Hindi ka kayang pasayahin ng kahit sino dahil mas lalo mong nararamdaman ang sakit sa tuwing nakakakita ka ng magkarelasyon na magkaholding-hands at naglalambingan.

Nakakainggit hindi ba?
Na sana ikaw rin.
Na sana kasama mo sya.

Pero kaya pang tiisin dahil naniniwala kang kayo pa rin hanggang sa huli.
Dahil hindi mahalaga ang distansya para sa inyo kung ang laman ng puso nyo naman ay ang isa't isa.

Pero hindi lahat ganito, hindi lahat kayang magsakripisyo.
Hindi sapat ang telepono, ang Internet para mapawi ang kalungkutan.
Mahirap labanan ang tukso.
Mahirap pigilan ang sarili na magmahal ng iba.
Hindi maiiwasang mahalin ang taong laging nandyan para sa'yo.
Pero kailangan pigilan ang nararamdaman dahil may taong umaasa at patuloy na naghihintay sa'yo.

'Wag kang aasa kung wala kang tiwala.
'Wag kang mag paasa kung ayaw mo na.
Kapag mahal ka n'ya, gagawa sya ng paraan para makita at makasama ka.
Kung dagat man ang pagitan, tatawag sya sa'yo para kamustahin ka.
Hindi dahilan kung busy sya dahil kung miss ka nya, ilang minuto lang naman, magagawa nya.

Sa huli, sapat lahat ng sakripisyo dahil mangingibabaw ang pagmamahal nyo sa isa't isa.

Simple lang ang buhay... walang forever... walang assurance.

At the end of the day, true love can stand against all odds.

Kung naranasan mo man ang ganitong sitwasyon, "Kaya pa ba?"

'Wag lokohin ang sarili mo kung alam mo namang walang patutunguhan at umaasa ka lang sa wala.

Sabi na lang ng iba, "bahala na... kung kami, kami talaga."

Bear in mind,

"Fate brings you together... but it's up to you to make it happen."





thanks @itsmekriztinab

How to Hold a Gun

How To Hold A Gun by Sarah Coloso


All are parasites
Feasting on the host
Father, Son and Holy Ghost

Take them while they're young
Teach them how to hate
Teach them how to hold a gun

We dug an earthen grave
And buried reason deep
Though she tried to fight
She soon fell fast sleep
We filled it up again
And marked it with a cross
And never paused to contemplate
The weight of what we'd lost

Father, look this way
Trust in me your might
Teach me how to win the fight
Take me not in vain
You shall hold your tongue
Lest I kill your first born sons

We parted wide the sea
And reason followed in
And when we had escaped
We drowned her for her sins
There is no turning back
From ripples of deceit
And so we journey on
The serpent's at our feet

Be you not afraid
Gospel shall abide
Keep the iron faith
God is on my side

OUTKAST

Standing alone under an evening sky watching the world spin around me. I see the faces of lost souls dancing in the winds of change and pouring through the sands of time.
No one sees me standing there. Turning away when I don’t dance to the beat or march to the drums of a thousand fools. They pretend I’m not there whispering about me as if I couldn’t hear, just a piece of broken furniture, a part of the scenery simply waiting to be thrown away.
But there I stand all alone to tomorrow quietly challenging the song around me by refusing to sing along. Instead watching as empty hearts walk along looking past the invisible child, just standing there waiting for the rain. And it’s there I’ll stand in a thousand years long after the dance has carried the fools away even after my body has given in to the grip of time, my place will remain unchanged. For I am the outcast the one who refused the dance of a thousand fools forced to suffer the wind and the rain and stand transparent to the world around me. But the only one to remain when the music stops and time marches on grinding the dancers into dust and scattering their memory to the winds of change. Though I’m left to an empty world you’ll never see sorrow in my eyes. I’ll raise my glass with the other invisible souls as we watch the last grains in hourglass of time trickle through to the bottom winding down the universe, letting us know our work is done and that the ageless can now age no more.

DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE YOU

Get a job, get a life
and all that money stuff
Slave to God, slave to money
none of it cares about you
Two car garage, white picket fence
happiness is so cheap today
Blind your eyes, dull your thoughts
maybe then you'll fail to see
that I don't want to be like you

Nine to five, lunch at noon
how can this work for you?
Say your prayers, go to bed
Forget about what you want to do
Crush the dream, kill the hopes
it's the right thing to do
Buy their shirts, make them rich
maybe they’ll like you then
But I don't want to be like you

Cut your hair, change your shoes
who cares if they work for you?
Punch the keys, do the work
and keep your smart mouth shut
Wash your hands, chew your food
don't choke on the words I say
Raise your glass, drink your wine
and kiss your future goodbye
because I don't want to be like you

-Raven

A KISS GOOD NIGHT

I don’t know what it is about you
that always gets me this way.
But every time I see you sleeping
with your eyes fluttering gently
and your smile so warm and inviting
something deep inside breaks down
something frozen within melts
and washes away everything that’s wrong
with the world as I know it.
For a brief moment the universe is perfect
and I feel I can do no wrong.
As I watch you clutch the sheets around you
pulling them warm and tight to your chin
I can find no fault in my life in the paths I have taken
or the decisions I have made.
I know that if my life were to end here and now
I would have reached the pinnacle of happiness
and perhaps some kind of deeper truth.
Because as I watch you sleep your perfect sleep
the sleep of the just
the sleep of the great
I know that even when happiness eludes my heart
and it seems the Gods are out to get me
that I can always borrow a smile
from your perfect dream
and a glimpse of a better world
in the reflections behind your fluttering eyes

YOU ARE

How can I show you that you are beautiful
when you always look the other way
Finding imperfections with every living breath
feeding yourself deceit every night as you lie in bed

How can I show you that you are beautiful
when you see only flaws in the diamond
and not the sparkle that it holds
You judge yourself with consequence
tearing down what nature built
and turning it into darkness cold

How can I show you that you are beautiful
when you don’t look into the mirror
save with tear-streaked eyes
How can you see yourself as I do
when you’re peering through a looking glass
wrapped by doubt and loathing brewed within your mind

How can I show you that you are beautiful
when your beauty is just too much and leaves me lost for words
choking on every thought
while trying to explain something so clear
that it is written all over your face


How can I show you that you’re beautiful
when the world is not enough and a million voices
fail to change your song
unable to silencethe doubt that beats away

No I can’t show you that you’re beautiful
No matter how hard I try
But I’ll whisper it to you every night
as you drift off to sleep and hope that one morning
you’ll wake up with eyes wide open and see yourself as I do

A perfect diamond
A stunning reflection
and a ray of sun piercing my own darkness
taking the clouds away

BITCHCRAFT

you aren't a friend of mine i hope you suffer in silence bleed til you drown sink to the bottom suffocating so slowly carsh and burn deep to the soul torturing never over insanity reaching inside live you life in hell for all the bullshit you ever spread.. DIE BITCH DIE!!

GOTHIC RAIN

Do you like the world you live in
Would you like to see it burn
Are you the center of your own universe?
Would you like to see it destroyed?
In hard times like these
We strive to find peace
Your world is your own
How much do you hate it?
It just takes one bullet to
Watch your world crumble
The empire you built
Will all come down
The castles you constructed
And the ditches you dug
Theres no more pain
When youre dead to the world
Look deep into your heart
And kill whats left
Cast out your love
Cast out your hate
Feel no more, pawn
Do you love what youve become?
Do you love the friends youve made?
Do you love the things you stand for?
Do you love the things you hate?
Can you reach into your pocket
And pull out your TEC-9
End your worthless life
In hopes of saving mine
The castles youve constructed
And the ditches youve dug
Theres no more pain
When youre dead to the world

UNTITLED v 2.0

Remove this sour taste
Upon my bitten tongue
Release me from the torture
From the nothing I’ve become
Take away the sorrow
The deep regret in which I lead
Leave this rancid burden
Go find that humble place
Demolish the pain
Which I cherish to death
Realease it from my core
Show me my death bed
The rose thorns lay upon
The bed I’ll lay on
The day I’ll find my hell
The reality it has become
Break away my shackled chains
Keep me from the light
Hide me from the shame
That I once did doubt
The jeopardy life, of two shames
The vulnerability of one heart
The road I chose to take
Is of one to my burden
So my decrepit heart wont break

FUSION

We should just hug.. and.. end up kissing
But I am speechless and my eye won't wink
As I type down what I'm thinking
Standing in my own cold shadow
One step away.. away from your light

I know I'll crack but still I wait
Wanting you to give in first
The you in me won't fade or break
Every time you cross my thoughts
I'm feeling strung out deep inside

You're such a vain idiot just like me
Stubborn..I love you more than words can say

Baby..

Between you and me is fusion
Beams of shining red vibes.

UNTITLED (old one)

I smile because I have to.
I have to do everything
They want of me.
I never can be myself
Or make my own decisions.
I guess I'm not a person.
I guess I don't have feelings.
I feel like giving up.
I wish I could just give in.
I'm so sick of playing
This game I never seem to win.
I don't have a single smile
Or a reason to fcking stay.
I'm just waiting impatiently
For my mind to go totally insane.
I don't have a razor blade
And everything that's good is my biggest fear.
But I do have a little fcking feeling,
And I'm sick of fcking fighting my tears.
No one gives me apologies,
I mean, a creature like me deserves nothing.
I just wish that someone would love me unconditionally.
I wish my life were worth... just something.

SADNESS

today I said goodbye

it's my way to not cry

my anger needs answering

I've proven to remain the same

in disposal of my madness

I felt somewhat rent by sadness

in my eyes my love is dying

I can't stop the bleeding

and now it's gone I feel lonely

I'm done trying I'm done flying

don't believe I ever loved you

perhaps there's just a void to fill

wouldn't I couldn't I well shouldn't I reach out

looking back it's still the same again

wouldn't I couldn't I well shouldn't I fade out

looking back that's done for me alright